Weary
19 Jul
(warning: Whiny post ahead. I just need to vent. Shiny happy Kim will be back in a day or two. )
I’m a weary girl these days. Work’s kicking my butt – we’re going on over a month now without that manager job being filled and I’m wearing down. I’m the only person at my company who knows how to do my job. That’s good for job security (well, not really) but it’s bad because if I dare take a day off, stuff piles up. I’ve been doing a lot of running around too on the nights and weekends and I’m feeling it. I’m worried about money — it’s rushing out of the checking account like an angry river.
When it goes over 95 degrees, the power goes off on the top 3 floors of our building. They’re looking into it, but it’s weird not knowing whether or not I’ll have electricity. I’ve been setting the iPhone alarm every night in case the clock radio cuts off. And then waking up every hour to make sure I know what time it is. Suffice it to say I haven’t been sleeping well, either.
I feel like I’m being pulled in a million directions even though I know I’m not.
Tomorrow night I have a vet appointment for Max to get his shots, and I expect to be chided for letting him go 5 months w/o getting a rabies booster. And for his super long nails. After that they’ll tell me he’s overweight and look at me disapprovingly about his teeth. Then charge me $250 for the pleasure of it all.
And I’ll pick up Misty’s cremains while I’m there. This may be uncouth to write about, but my vet charged me $272 for her euthanization and cremation. Is that over the top? It seems so. She was only 5 lbs. Maybe Super-Obama can reform veterinary care next.
But Wednesday night brings a fun outdoor concert with Mom. Then I’m staring at a lovely planless weekend. Two gorgeous blank squares on the calendar. Maybe I’ll sit by the pool and read. Maybe I’ll have a chance to play with my beads. Maybe I can play World of Warcraft for more than a half-hour. Maybe I’ll just crash on the sofa with cucumbers over my eyes and listen to Dave Matthews Band on repeat.
In the dark. :/



